I started this blog over four years ago because I had a story I wanted to tell about those few years when my life changed: when my son was born, when I discovered my husband's addiction, when my son was diagnosed with autism, when my daughter was born. And I feel that most of what I wanted to tell is here. I'd like to edit it and rearrange it someday -- to put it in the form of a story one could read from start to finish -- but the bones of that story are here and done.
I haven't written much in the past year or so, and I haven't checked my messages in months. And this blog has started to feel more like a weight that I don't need to carry anymore. There's simply not much more to tell. Not here. I have stories about where I was before and where I am now, but those aren't MPJ's stories. They're My stories. The Me that includes, but is much more than, MPJ.
So, for the time being, I'll set this blog down and leave what's here for other Internet travelers to find as they may, like artifacts in the dust. Perhaps one of you will find something here you can use. If I ever do edit all this into something readable, I'll check back in. But I'd like to call this farewell for now. MPJ is going away to be subsumed into the greater Me again. I'm grateful our paths have crossed here, and I wish you all well in your journeys, wherever they take you.
I haven't written much in the past year or so, and I haven't checked my messages in months. And this blog has started to feel more like a weight that I don't need to carry anymore. There's simply not much more to tell. Not here. I have stories about where I was before and where I am now, but those aren't MPJ's stories. They're My stories. The Me that includes, but is much more than, MPJ.
So, for the time being, I'll set this blog down and leave what's here for other Internet travelers to find as they may, like artifacts in the dust. Perhaps one of you will find something here you can use. If I ever do edit all this into something readable, I'll check back in. But I'd like to call this farewell for now. MPJ is going away to be subsumed into the greater Me again. I'm grateful our paths have crossed here, and I wish you all well in your journeys, wherever they take you.
Good job. :) I'm glad you're going to leave this blog up. It's a great resource for understanding the facets of SA and recovery, and you've put into words the ton of bricks so many of us have been hit with, helping us to wrap our brains around it all. It's still referenced on my own blog as a good read! Let us know when it's in book form! :D
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for everything, M. I wish you all the best. xo ~ L
ReplyDeleteThanks for writing and doing this blog. I wish you a good journey.
ReplyDeleteI'll miss you, Mary.
ReplyDeleteIf you ever decide to 'come out' and publish this please let me know. I'd love to be able to support you. Or, if you decide to start another blog I'd love to read that too!
I'm guessing that things are well for you. Wishing you all the best! I'm glad I got to know you here. I hope you know that you're on my list of blog friends that I haven't met that I would LOVE to meet someday. XO
how "odd" that you wrote your farewell today and I discovered your blog by searching infidelity & autism today.
ReplyDeleteI'm in the same "boat" as far as dealing with my husband's infidelity and a child with autism, but our marriage remains intact.
Thank you for writing your story out. I look forward to reading about the path you've traveled.
Wow, a little part of me wants to cry, but an even bigger part of me is happy for you to let go of what's become somewhat of a weight. I found this blog years ago when I was in a relationship with someone I suspected had sort of an addiction to women. I didn't know how to put it into words and then I found your blog and it was the first time I felt like someone out there could understand my thoughts.
ReplyDeleteBest wishes to you. Thank you for sharing so much of your life with the www.
I'm so pleased to have found you on the internet, and to have followed what you've shared here. I think you're profoundly lovely and I am a better person for your influence, even from a distance. Much love and joy to you, MPJ.
ReplyDeleteBest wishes to you, MPJ!!!! I'll miss you, most definitely.
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